Fed up, and not feeling like taking it any more…

I’m fed up with Mental Health.  Perhaps mostly with psychiatrists.
I’m also fed up with most professionals out there.  There is *one*
place that I feel comfortable going for professional  and even that I
can’t feel that comfortable about going to at times.

That place, The Academy of Classical Oriental Sciences, both the
outpatient clinic, and the student clinic.  I can be freaking out
there and really all they want to figure out is what (to me “natural”)
diagnosis they can provide, and through that how they can treat me.
They don’t tell me “not to worry because there is nothing to worry
about”, unless they can see that as a legitimate therapeutic
intervention.  They don’t question if I’m telling the truth, only ask
more specific questions to get to what they are looking for in terms
of a diagnosis.  They would never contact someone else without telling
me that they are, and why they are doing it.  In other words, they
treat me like a real human being and totally respect me.

I am at the point that I’m honestly looking at going off all my
medications, and doing so very carefully, and slowly, just because the
only thing I *really* see helping me is the Chinese medicine.  And I
honestly think the “western” medicine is countering the Chinese
medicine quite significantly.  I know some people think Chinese
medicine is “bunk”, but I think I have to listen to what works for me,
and that is Chinese Medicine.  The one possibility that has worked in
the past is “low dose” lithium.  Unfortunately there is only one place
in the area that I know where to get it from.

I am also thinking of moving.  Not because I honestly see a better
place for me to get what I need, but because of the fact that other
than the two places that really seem supportive of me as a human,
everything seems to be taking me down.  Wait, there seems to be one
other place that mostly works out that way for me.  That is school.

Anyway, I think I’ll leave this update at this for now.  I’ll catch up
with you later.  Looking forward to hearing what people say.